I've been doing a lot of thinking...

And it hurts like hell.

Actually, it kind of does, just not in the physical sense. But the thoughts that are going through my head lately are certainly damaging to the ego. One might argue as to whether this is a good thing or not. It could be like the a necessary surgery to excise a malignant tumor, even though the surgeon cannot help but damage the surrounding tissues in the process.

I'm not going to get into it here. I'm trying to get my thoughts straight on the matter first. It's likely going to lead to a long essay that no one will ever read, but I'll do it anyway. Maybe someday someone will stumble upon it and see what my early work was like. I think that's my problem in posting here: I want to make a point but find it challenging to post something on the spur of the moment that has great meaning without taking the time to compile it first. I'm too critical of myself and my own work. And the fact this is little more that vanity blog at this point doesn't help but to feed my ego, making me more critical for posting meaningful crap under the assumption that it would actually be viewed someday. Which then feeds the ego more.

Leggo my ego!

There! Is that meaningful enough?